...And speaking of food

SIGHhhhhhhhhhhhh.....why is it the harder I try to watch what I eat, the harder it gets. Is it simply that I am more aware of it or is it that I want what Im not supposed to have? Im trying to remember that each little thing I do has an outcome, good or bad. Even small changes are helpful.

Im feeling like life is overwhelming me again. I suppose its a culmination of the holidays, the girl's birthday, , all of us being sick and work being very very busy right now. The days ZOOM by and its three o'clock and im picking up the girl wondering what the heck happened to the day.

Im trying to remind myself to live in the present. So much of my daily routine involves thinking through the next thing (its a huge part of my job, preparing for future events so that they run smoothly...that whole OFFENSIVE, verses DEFENSIVE concept) I often forget that HELLO, life is going on around me at this very minute. I knw that Im missing some of what God has for me because Im busy thinking or trying to take care of the next thing. Not that that is bad in itself, because in reality if no one thought about it things would not run well. I just need to remember that rarely does it need the premium importance that I put on it. Its one of my worst qualities.

Being sick effects me a lot. Some people can just deal with it but Im sluggish and stuffy headed with this sinus infection. E just got over the flu. The girl a super nova of a cold.

I think one of my students put it well the other day. I asked her if she was okay and she said, "I just woke up cranky..." Im a bit cranky. I know myself well enough to realize that the antidote involves three things:

1. Resting

2. Time with God

3. Simplifying life

It sounds nice in theory, but for today....Im still a little cranky!