Warp Speed

Im in for the duration now...

From here until June 4 life will run at warp speed.

The end of school is always hectic and then you factor in all the girl's stuff and E's stuff and its like...WOW!

In addition to our usual lives of school, work, church, and relationships, before June 4, the following things will happen:

• The girl will attend a volleyball clinic (first ever)


• I will get to spend 3 days in Boston with the AP US History class


• We will have friends spend the night


• The schools awards ceremony will take place


• The girl's end of the year program will occur


• Girl Scout Troop 1402 will go to feed the homeless at Coalition for the Homeless


• I will make a geometry final


• I will give a geomoetry final


• I will correct 43 geometry finals


• We will go to Silver Springs with our inlaws and E's family


• We will have a trip to Ocala


• There will be an end of the school year luncheon


• I will check out/oversee the packing up of 14 different teachers


• Grades will be completed


• My office will be packed up for the move to the new building


• Our carpets will get cleaned


• I get to see the dermatologist


• Girl Scout Troop 1402 had their campout at the Nickelodean Hotel (Now thats my kind of camp out!!!)


• Orangewood will graduate another class


• I will attend at least 6 graduation open houses/ parties


• And on June 5...I will be whooping it up and ready for summer!!!

As always, Im trying to remain present, rest when I can rest and breathe when it gets hectic. And as always I wish I were better at being busy. I get overwhelmed quickly

I feel oddly detached too. At times I feel that my job has swallowed me in the sense that I do not get to spend as much time with the students as I would prefer, and yet, I enjoy the organizational part of my administrative duties (that is still hard for me to say because I always think there is no way I am old enough or experienced enough to be called an administrator)

I worry about the girl during this time when I am so busy and tend to be distracted. She-who-does-not-curse had an interesting insight when I told her that at times I feel almost too connected to the girl. She said it might be because she is an only...that if I had more children it would be different...that I wouldnt worry to the degree that I do about the girl. That made good sense to me.

I just always feel horrible for the days that we do not connect, she and I. I think my number one goal in this life is to love God and give him glory. My number two job is to honor and love my husband (always falling short on that one....as in daily, hourly...) and also to raise a competent, healthy, God-fearing, world-compassionate child. One who is relatively functional and happy. I can honestly say that she is never far from my thoughts and my heart. Only recently have I come to realize that when I am not with her, she does not miss me like I miss her. Dont get me wrong, I dont say that in a sick-living-through-my-child-way, but in more in a my-heart-is-forever-tied-to-her sort of way.

Ah...im rambling...you can tell im tired? I praise the Lord that He is in control of this life. Im so thankful that I dont have to figure it all out but rather listen to him and be open to what He has for me, even in the busy times like this.