The past 12 months have had an unusual amount of loss for me personally. Not major stuff, but rather lots of little stuff.
Our dear friend Dustin left us at the beginning of the year. That was a big one. I still cant believe he is gone and occasionally it catches my breath then I think back to those events. The loss friendships due to moving and circumstances have also been very sad.
Im working on saying goodbye to our senior cat Dexter. It will be soon that we have to put him down. He is looking so pathetic and last night I was wondering if he would be better off if we let him go. I hate saying goodbye to animals. I hate that we have the control to end their lives and they dont really have a "say" in it. I worry that I will make the wrong decision or that I will do it too soon. I worry that I will be selfish and want him around and it will be too late!
Last night I had a good "talk" with him. A talk with a cat really consists of lots of petting and stroking and purring and just loving on them. Having had Dexter for 14 years I know exactly what he likes and he was purring and kneading his paws last night. Its hard to say goodbye to something that has brought you such joy for so many years. I told him that it was okay...that he could go when he was ready and that I loved him. He is a buddy. He will always be our first cat and we will love him even in his death.
On the other hand today he caught a black racer, brought it in the house proudly and proceeded to eat it. I was so shocked that he actually had a live snake that I just didnt do anything. I was torn between letting him eat it and having to stop him and figure out what to do with the snake!!! ICK!! Yeah...I let him eat it. 10 minutes later he was licking out my bowl of choclate ice cream...so on second thought maybe he is not on his last legs...
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please tell me that you got a different bowl of icecream after he started licking it heehee
i can't imagine what it will be like when we have to say goodbye to Shane. He's going on 10 and I just know he's gonna have some arthritis issues, he's already starting.
My prayers are with you honey! ;)
Is this his real picture? I LOVE tabby cats. That's the kind I had and he lived 17 years. He was my "foot kitty" loved to be at your feet. Never on your lap. His name was Milo - and yes we had Otis too. I called him my Teddy Bear Boy too. He was so cool. They just have the best personalities. I am getting me another one - soon - shhhh, don't tell Nick, its a surprise :)
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